A continuation from A Book Is All It Took. I could not believe that my pithy email had been read by a real live person and that they were reaching out to me! I called the woman back who had left the message. She simply said that the author would like to have me on … More The Invitation
Fear Becomes Me, Part Two, is where I last left my story of divorce. If I had to name the darkest hour of my life, it would be where I am now in my story. The fear of being sick ruled my mind, and thus my life on every level. It was a miserable existence … More A Book Is All It Took
[Here in my little not-so-private space, I have ever-so-slowly been sharing my story of divorce. Part One left off with my husband’s discovery of my affair and my struggles with the stress of it all.] I have spent a good amount of time on the St. Clair river. Enormous freighters frequently pass through its deep … More Fear Becomes Me, Part Two
“Lies and secrets, Tessa, they are like a cancer in the soul. They eat away what is good and leave only destruction behind.” ― Cassandra Clare, Clockwork Prince So, there I was on a runaway train. I contemplated often on how to get out of my situation. The thought to leave my husband never really … More Fear Becomes Me, Part One
Google defines conscious as, aware of and responding to one’s surroundings; awake. The word “conscious” has been in the media quite a bit recently since Gwyneth Paltrow (famous actress) announced her “Conscious Uncoupling.” Seven years ago, I began to write my thoughts about my path to divorce and titled it, My Conscious Journey to Divorce … More A word about the word, Conscious.
If you had seen me on the street 10 years ago, you may have thought, “What a perfect family.” You may have described us as happy, loving, clean, and beautiful. We had the perfect house, perfect beautiful children, we were all slim and healthy, we had money, we had it all. You may have even … More Judging a book by its cover.
This post is a continuation of my story, the last related post being, My Decent. My story is a cautionary tale in some sense. I came through it a better person, thankfully, and that is why I have chosen to tell it. I will be judged and that is OK. I will be embarrassed and … More A secret life.
I don’t even recall what started our last argument. I do recall that it quickly progressed to my husband packing his bags. Which, by the way, still sit in the corner of the bedroom where they were tossed in exasperation. They are still there because he is too lazy to put them away, not because he … More Please refer to the “Divorce Plan”
I am what I like to call an AOL casualty. Back in 1997, I was introduced to AOL and its dangerously addictive Instant Messaging and Chat Rooms. This new and exciting phenomenon was like a drug put in front of our faces. I partook of it like so many others. There were no warning labels, … More My decent…
As I begin my reflection on my first divorce, my first thoughts go to my childhood. This is what created my personality to some extent, right? How I learned to see myself and life determined how I came to everything. I can get very metaphysical here, such as, I chose my next life to be … More In the beginning…