“It’s been over a decade since I ended my long-term affair yet I could feel the trauma of living that lie like it was happening right now.” I had a rare dream about James last night. Probably because he popped up in my email by some sort of spam from his contact list. What was … More Trauma and 13 Years Later
If you’ve been following my story, you may be wondering what happened with the person that literally changed the course of my life. The time between the retreat, my divorce and a few years into being single, our relationship became fragmented, diluted. It’s not surprising as I had changed the playing field, thus the rules … More James
A continuation from The Invitation It’s been a very long time since the post above. There are 10 excuses why I stopped, none of them good really. I feel very emotional as I sit here and begin to pick up where I left off. It’s time to finish my story. I will do my best … More The Retreat
As I embark on this next journey in my life, I can’t help but think about what it means, or what it should mean to be in a relationship. Marriage isn’t two souls becoming one. We are already one with everyone (That is my spiritual belief anyway). It isn’t about owning someone as in, I … More The Meaning of Relationships
A continuation from A Book Is All It Took. I could not believe that my pithy email had been read by a real live person and that they were reaching out to me! I called the woman back who had left the message. She simply said that the author would like to have me on … More The Invitation
Just days ago, I was on a trip like no other trip. It was not a vacation where we run to and fro collecting as many sites and experiences as possible, but rather an exploration and awakening of my soul. A meditation retreat. A place where I found safe haven, love and life-long friends. It … More It was easy there.
Are you selfish or selfless? When I decided to divorce, I was called selfish more times than I can count. Others thought I was putting myself first before my husband and children. In fact, I was, but I did it just as much for myself as I did it for my children. I was selfish … More Being selfish gets a bad rap.
Fear Becomes Me, Part Two, is where I last left my story of divorce. If I had to name the darkest hour of my life, it would be where I am now in my story. The fear of being sick ruled my mind, and thus my life on every level. It was a miserable existence … More A Book Is All It Took
[Here in my little not-so-private space, I have ever-so-slowly been sharing my story of divorce. Part One left off with my husband’s discovery of my affair and my struggles with the stress of it all.] I have spent a good amount of time on the St. Clair river. Enormous freighters frequently pass through its deep … More Fear Becomes Me, Part Two
How often do we talk about something we are really happy about and then in the same breath we complain about something else? How often do our wheels spin on all our problems and “To do” lists instead of what is going great? How often do we celebrate the good things, compared to complaining about … More When what is, is enough.